I honestly, didn't know what to put my question under so that I may receive input. However, I hope I may be taken seriously.

I was in Jamica with my fiancee. We were suppose to be married but he wanted to wait.  Anyway he had purchased two pairs of jamican beads. one for him and one for me.

Because my clock was ticking because I wanted to get married, I left him.

I lost a great wealth of money, material objects, etc.

We have been dating again now for a year.

Yesterday, there was a computer problem and I was under the desk and found a set of the jamican beads with a cartoon that said love is keeping track of time waiting for him.

I havn't been able to sleep  getting to bed around 3:00 am.

So, my problem is what do I do with these beads.

All advise greatly appreciated.

I find that negative thoughts and beliefs about myself are directly tied to my thoughts and beliefs of others...  For example, the more I think negatively of myself or judge myself, the more I think negatively of others or judge others, and vice versa.  Sometimes it's easier for me to be kind to others than to myself, so when I catch myself judging someone else in any way, even just the slightest bit negative, I say to myself, "When I judge others, I do not define them, I define myself."  Most of the time I am almost instantly freed from my judgment and negative thought and have a sense of just being.  The more I accept this statement, the more I start judging others less and judging myself less.  I have fewer and fewer negative thoughts and beliefs throughout the day, which means I have more positive thoughts and feelings throughout the day and feel more freedom to stop worrying and just be myself and pursue my desires.

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